What a week! :-(

JAUNDICE. yup.. on baby lanner's 5th day i noticed he's really yellow (bes had a bit of yellow but it was nothing so i assumed the same. lesson one: NEVER assume.) and he was startin to get some white spots.. again i though it's just a rash... just to be on the safe side, i packed the girls (nanny n bes) into the car n drove to the kids' clinic, dr terry. she took one look at lanner n said we had to run a blood test asap. looked serious. within 2 hrs (4pm) i was at... where else... the dreaded LIKAS hospital.. where i spent 4 days of torture after besra was born, and where the week before this they practically ignored me in the emergency unit where i was in pain for 1.5hrs and the damn doctor gave me a hell of a time until i walked out. needless to say, not many fond memories at likas.

anyway, this time they were a bit quicker to act. baby's jaundice level was 550 which is really high if u consider 280 is the danger level where they put the child under the photo (UV light) machine. they managed to f(*& up the drip which was supposed to bring the level down. martin was mega pissed off with them but they said, they were already doin their best. when they finally got the drip going, baby's level was 611 and hadnt dropped. so they went ahead with a full blood transfusion 480ml, 2 cycles of lanner's blood circulation which took abt 3 hrs. by 1am the level was down to 280. lanner didnt cry (in fact he seldom cries) and he seems none the wiser considering the trauma it really was but i guess that's the magic of being a baby. only the mommies n daddies suffer n shed tears of 'what ifs'.

over the next 7 days, i was again a prisoner of likas hospital, cos they had to complete 7 days of antibiotics to make sure there is no infection in lanner's blood. i should really be more grateful to the hospital and their staff instead of complaining all the time. ok, as of this second, i'm a changed person. i will stop harping on their faults and just be thankful for the good that came out of it. Lanner is well n safe and they did try their best. ;-)

i've missed my home and my daughter soooooo much over the last week. and although my fortune teller once said i'll have two sons n a girl, i think i will consciously stop at two. if i have another one the risk of premature birth is astronomically high.. and with it brings even more health risks. i'm seriously not going to put any more lives in danger cos it just pulls too hard on my emotional strings.. dont think i can bear it if anything bad happens. fingers crossed.

lanner is such a joy to look after. he cries very lil, the doc says cos he's comfortable n that i shouldn't worry. he cried today when i bathed him, so that's a relief. ;-) he just drinks his milk every 3 hrs, has a pee n a poop n goes back to sleep. n the cycle repeats itself. i think with besra i didnt really enjoy the first few months because being a new mother you're always second guessing yourself, trying to assess if you're doing the right thing at the right time. with this second one, i'm more relaxed and i really take the time to just enjoy the experience.

who does he look like? hehe a bit like besra but with smaller eyes, still double eyelids but noticeable smaller. same nose as besra and mouth, but a distinctively missing chin. lol.. dark brown hair n eyes are gray blue right now just like besra's was but eventually it will turn brown, dont ask me why.. i dunno. he's adorable. martin is away at a very important fishing competition right now and he took the camera with him so no pics, the only pic i have on computer is one a friend (thanks allen!) took while he was in the warmer just after he was born on 17th april. will flood the blog with close up shots soon, i promise. anyway, just glad that all is well in the wiles household now. there is no place like home! hugs for all the smses n calls n well wishes... so nice to know that plenty of people out there care. kiss kiss!

Lanner Hon-Yang Wiles, 2.95kg, 17.4.09

Hi! As most of you will have known by now, the stork has once again arrived damn early! 5 weeks to be precise as Lanner was 34 weeks and almost twice what Besra was at 32 weeks (1.8kgs). Basically, i dont have much time to write as i'm using a friend's computer but here is the short version.

Last friday, 2.30pm had a scan with doc after 1 weeks rest, doc said keep it in for 2 weeks more, he's going for a conference right after our appointment anyway so he wont be around. jokingly, we discussed another doctOr: Dr. Felice who will be on standby.

5pm had some tea n buns with good friend Aloysia on the way home.

6pm reached home. puked my guts out n went to lie down.

6.30pm water broke... yikes! jumped in car with martin.

7.40pm arrived in kk specialist centre... contractions 3 mins apart and *&^%ing painful! (yeah yeah, now i know how it feels)

7.59pm Lanner enters the world helped thankfully by Dr. Felice......my lovely lil cherub is here!

Next day, discharged and home now.

All is safe n well. thanks to all the well-wishers, hugs to everyone and will try to update blog when i can as i have no internet connection at home. all i can say is, thank goodness he's safe n happy n healthy, and i dont have to lug around the load anymore (was really killing me!) and most importantly, FACTORY IS CLOSED! i seriously can't take the constant puking! hehe. ;-)

Love from AUDREY, MARTIN, BESRA N LIL LANNER.

Preterm Labour Scare... again!

It seems that everytime there is a holiday (Easter!) round the corner my body makes it a priority to get messed up! last week i was on a high because my very own English Language Debate team for SMK Majakir (my beloved school) made history by beating all the other schools in the Papar district to emerge as champions! plus we got best speaker... needless to say, my girls were absolutely brilliant! ;-) anyway, that was wednesday, on thurs i was puking my guts out relatively every 3 hrs for more than 24hrs and i suppose this confused my system as by thurs night i was in pain... preterm labour pain! i was feeling contractions but only at the top of my belly and as the baby hasnt engaged, my below the belt bits felt fine. anyway called my doc n he said to go the the govt hosp cos at 33 weeks if i go into labour there's nothing much he can do. (bes as born at the govt hosp too cos she was 32 weeks, 2 mths premature... the cycle repeats itself- well almost!)

anyway, i get there... and this is the emergency unit! took them 40 mins to register me, 20 mins for a nurse to bother with the basics, and another 20 mins before a doc even spoke to me. and who do i get? a bloody useless doc who was utterly rude to me. he kept demanding for my medic card, and cos i didnt have one (it was an emergency afterall!) he kept making an issue of why i didnt just go back to my specialist and why was it that my own doc couldnt handle the matter. basically he was being the typical idiotic malay (sorry to have to say it!) scumbag, with his huffy tone. so i told him that if he didnt want to treat me i'll go to my specialist. then i called my doc and told him to meet me at his ward and i dressed and left the useless emergency unit after telling the nurse what a jerk the doc was.

anyway, i was in pain, and in tears at being treated so rudely and i complained to my doctor.. he gave me meds and put me on a drip and ordered me to stay the night and all was getting better... dr sarva is indeed a star! as soon as i was being dealt with comfortably, he picks up the phone and bombards the likas hospital head of department and they started investigations.
by 6am the next morning the contractions and vomiting had subsided and by 8am doc came by with an sms from the head of department apologising profusely to me. apparently the doctor in question was unhappy abt doing more clerical work cos i had no medical card and he did insist that i return to my specialist which he shouldnt have done. anyway, that silly guy is now on 4 months extra probation which means he'll be counting the days from now on and reminding himself that he should never ever be rude to any patient! these people take the hippocrates oath, promising to cure the ill and protect life.. but what does he do, stand around complaining while i'm in pain: can u believe that 1.5 hrs after arriving at the emergency unit no one had given me anything for the pain?! grrrrrr

anyway, all's well again, i'm on medical leave for the whole of this week. baby keeps hardening and i'm getting very uncomfortable...gosh i really do need a fast forward button! haha... anyway, hopefully Lanner will want to pop out as soon as i reach my 35th week.. i dont think i want to stay pregnant until the end of the term which is the 39th or 40th week... i really think i'll burst by then!

anyway, going to lie down now... sighs.. scan on fri so will update later. hugs to all!

A flock of birds..

This is a pic of a bird called: Martin.

& I'm the swallow... ;-) & this is a pic of a Besra falcon

& last but not least is a Lanner falcon.

So now you know where our our mad naming strategy comes from. heheh...

The weekend that was..

Hey peeps.. i'm happy to report that all is well in the wiles' household. ;-) been a crazy week cos i'm still doing uni lectures 3 times a week but this week is the last for the semester... ooooooo cant wait for all that free time to shove my legs up in the air on the couch n watch tv till i'm so bored of it. haha.. knowing me, staying home so much will soon annoy my free-spiritedness... i am a bird after all, an ambitious swallow ascending to greater n greater heights all the time, or so i like to imagine. ;-)

scanned baby lanner last sat. the previous visit i only put on 100g in 2 weeks while baby jumped from 1.7 to 2kgs. so in a way i lost weight. this time, in two weeks... drum roll pls.. i chalked up 2.9kgs! yikes! baby also went from 2kgs to 2.4kg. i feel like a stretched rubber band that's about to snap.. sighs.. ;-) grrrrrr men r just so lucky they dont have to endure pregnancy! ah well.. the sacrifices of motherhood huh... been doing lots of shopping for baby lanner.. marji our nanny is adamant that baby needs all white stuff.. so she can see the dirt... sighs, i guess i gotta please her since she is staying to look after my babies... dunno what i would do without her! she's a real godsend, me i'm just the baby carraige! hehe...

this week at school will be hectic.. i'm training the school's english debate team. the other schools got wind that i'm now in this new school, so they are psychologically terrorised.. hehe.. blame my colourful past as a 2 time teachers level national champion experience. hehe... so hopefully, they can at least win one round cos we got a bye for the first round. if they win in the semis, then at least we are guaranteed 1st or 2nd place at the finals on Wed... everyone, need you to cross your fingers for us! hehehe...

anyway, this blimp is gonna sign out now. hugs to everyone!