When i was younger.. i always thought i'd move into the limelight in some foreign country.. live the life of a corporate goddess, travelling and meeting people from all walks of life. for a time, i even thought i'd be the Murphy Brown of Malaysia. hahah.. After getting the scholarship to study english, i was seriously thinking about teaching english in foreign countries.. seeing the world and giving back to mankind... you know.. do my bit for humanity.
Then I became a teacher.. and i got married and i hv two amazing children.. and i dont think i'd hv done that any differently because it's my destiny. I love teaching, and family is everything.... but the reality is, as i'm sure every wife n mother will agree, that priorities have changed. now we spend our time, money n effort on kids and bills and what not.. and there's little left in the jar for traipsing the world on a great adventure! gone are the backpacking days in italy, spain and france... but they were wonderful memories.. ;-)
oh but i had a sweet lil escape for 10 days when i went to england. it was like finding myself again.. being young and carefree and able to do things that really pleases me... meeting ppl from all walks of life.. taking a calming stroll in the park, going to watch an opera and a play.. revisiting places i havent been to in years.. spending time with precious friends, old and new.. i know it was just 10 days of my life.. but it's renewed my perspective on life. i dont want to be a passive part of the living anymore, i want to Live Life.
right, so what's there to do now? i dont quite know the answer.. i guess i shall have to live each day like there's no tomorrow, dance like no one's watching and keep telling the people i love that i truly love em!!!! i love you all (do i sound like MJ?) haha.. and hopefully, fate has in store for me gifts of great adventures which i hv yet to unravel.. one day soon i hope.. one day soon. ;-) i want to be drunk on life!
|Be Drunk|| |
| by Charles Baudelaire |
Translated by Louis Simpson
You have to be always drunk. That's all there is to it—it's the only way. So as not to feel the horrible burden of time that breaks your back and bends you to the earth, you have to be continually drunk.
But on what? Wine, poetry or virtue, as you wish. But be drunk.
And if sometimes, on the steps of a palace or the green grass of a ditch, in the mournful solitude of your room, you wake again, drunkenness already diminishing or gone, ask the wind, the wave, the star, the bird, the clock, everything that is flying, everything that is groaning, everything that is rolling, everything that is singing, everything that is speaking. . .ask what time it is and wind, wave, star, bird, clock will answer you: "It is time to be drunk! So as not to be the martyred slaves of time, be drunk, be continually drunk! On wine, on poetry or on virtue as you wish."